Thursday, January 29, 2004
back! from centrepoint hahas. went
there for shepherding.. although it's
like 1hr+ but i learned about faith!
anway, didn't went to school today..
it had become don't know how many
times that i'm sick this year sia.. -_-
daniel also got tell me to be
responsible about my health.. gonna
drink alot of water because being
sick is not God's plan. wah my care
group got 5 persons who are sick
including me. syekit,yongwee,mandl,
nicodemus & me. wah. alot sia.. kok
also sick. gideon also sick. wahhh...
o.o arh.. today wilson is unable to
come for cg!! wasted. he got course.
but he still went to look for me at
4pm but i was in rc >.< but we
suppose to meet at 2.30pm o.o
gonna call kokleng later.. ask what
time his newb caregroup starts.
hais. my dnt teacher confirm say me
again, say i trying to run away from
class by being absent. argh. nvm. he
wanna say let him say. oh ya..
anyway, the student website which
is y-hope website is up!! just
checked today and found it. here's
the link...
y-hope
actually saw this before but last time
was like uncomplete 1.. o.o arr..
gonna call ppl liao -gone!-
Wednesday, January 28, 2004
:( gary cannot come for tml
caregroup and we had bought all
the presents for him liao!!!!! :(
nvm! when he can come out, i
pass to him the presents personally.
thank God wilson can come. whaha.
he's sooo responsive. gonna pray
for gary and wilson to be retain!
anyway, went to j8 today with
zhexing, yongwee, syekit. book a
cab just because we don't want to
get wet. and we have to pay extra
$3.20!! o.o so expensive. anyway,
went to life bookshop saw the price
of most of the stuffs, wahhh all so
expensive one lol.. too bad can't
wait for saturday then buy from
hope stall because cg is tml! oh ya,
also saw some north group brothers
at the bookshop! total spend around
more than $80+ including my
sheeps' expenditure. hoho.. shiok
:D hope the presents really touch
their hearts. yep. ok gtg byebye!
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
o.o i went msn and icq!! lol. but for
purpose 1 la. lol. thank God i went if
not something bad will be worsen.
woo. together got to talk with the
new believer, wilson for few minutes.
on phone. not too long but wah he
very responsive! :D confirm coming
for caregroup on thurs. then he
gonna persuade his classmate, gary
to come. who also converted with
him on sat. then heard from mandl,
wilson bringing another friend. yea!
lol. anyway, the previous entry shall
be the revelation of the weekk!!!!!!
hoho.. shall be ready to take care of
people who will want to serve God
fully!!! :D actually this month goal
suppose to be 10. but i put it to 9
o.o because of someone left. - - "
hais. but shall continue to wait for
him to respond one day... and soon
>.< time flies so quickly. nowadays i
keep looking the changes of
people's faces. see all my contacts'
faces then imagine them in their
adult years. lol. times really flies.
what never wait for us is time. ok
let me go do my dnt now so that
tomorrow will not need to
chionggggggg so much.
wow. got something from God during
my conversation with Him. some
times we may get sad over people
not serving God to their best. do we
know that when people want to serve
God with their best, our responsibility
as the shepherd will be even more.
we will need more time, more effort
to invest in these people. one thing
that changed my mindset is that,
'am i ready for God to bless me with
people who want to serve God to
their best?' wah..!! new thing from
God... never heard this thingy before
o.o stop saying you want God to
bless you with more people who
want to serve God, ask yourself are
you ready for it first! alright man. i
shall be ready! by equipping myself
with the Word, living my life
consistently. so one way to show that
you are ready is that you need to
meet up your sheeps consistently
also. wooo. when YOU are ready to
serve God then your group shall be
ready. revelation! ok! off to read
bible! thank you God! -ciao-
o.o gideon suppose to call me. did
he? don't know. just -boop- on bed
just now, thank God wake up now.
shall spend time with God now! then
i can do my homework after that.
hehee.woo. didn't go msn. actually
got. haha. put appear offline. lol. if
only newb in msn maybe i will chat
with them hehe.
oh ya. err. learned from yesterday
qt. one thing very applicable is that
some times we will need to give up
some things in our lifes. we need to
be willing! give up things that are
not obvious like.. emotions! some
times we are just so affected by
emotions that we give God a big
black face lol. Job is a great example.
yeah. i admire Job sia. how he
TRUST in God during real difficulties.
lol. yea yea. Rejoice and Trust in the
Lord. ok ciao for now. bye!
Monday, January 26, 2004
back! from reunion dinner with nea
coreteam o.o so fasttt... how i wish
it will be longer. lol. anyway, today
was a refreshing day. yep. feel so
hurt by something done by someone
during in school but was refreshed
by God during worship at seed. yea.
that through Christ we have victory
and through Christ we will be able
to solve ANY problems. o.o today
teaching is about prayer! wah i write
until the paper not much space left.
anyway, yea. i shall blog since i will
not be going msn or icq ahaha...
oh ya.. i will only go unless it's a
NEED. real NEED. hehe. shall stop
this thingy when i feel it's the right
time to stop hehe... hope this thingy
will help me to maximise my time
effectively. o.o wondering when will
the new northeast website be done.
so tired now. today keep fishing
during assembly >.< arh! i'm gonna
call gary now! if not ar.. later cannot
meet him up for followup o.o hehe.
blog later if there's time. -ciao-
Sunday, January 25, 2004
okay. no more msn,icq,gunbound,cs
from now onwards. i shall stop
myself from using up my time on
these things. but there will be still
be blogging and tagging. yeah. gtg
-divine exchange- gone.
just came back from singapore. =x
err. came back from followup haha.
woo yea. successful followup hehe.
we went to eat at serangoon north.
after than he wanted to buy some
games but the shop is closed. then
he requested going LAN. lol so we
went. but in the end it's full house.
so we went amk to play LAN. and
there was full house also hahaa.
so we decided to eat AJ mountain!
lol so long never go amk liao haha.
hohoo.. really hope God touched his
heart today lol. funny guy .. said the
p&w in our church very scary all so
energetic >.< and yesterday was
just second service lol. imagine he
was in first service. anyway, wah
debbie very clever ar.. now she is
at my house now. LOL and she
laugh sooooo loud =x hmm.. don't
know whether my mum got give
angpow to her anot lols. wahh...
now i shall take a rest. lol. -tired-
hehe ciao!
this is lame. just realised that i
keep saying hohoho before i blog
something o.o shall stop it if not
later my boss come say what want
to sue me for copyright reasons =x
hohoho. just woke up and remember
a challenge that God told me
yesterday. o.o giving my entire
angpow money to cbf. lol. and i
decided to give all. i didn't give
yesterday la. but gonna give this
saturday. hahaa. i think i still will
only survive using my savings.
hmm.. later meeting wilson, my
first zhonghua followup hahaaa.
oh ya wilson is an indonesian!
lols. like FREEDY!!! lol really
gonna do my best to be a world
changer. no more slacking. no
more distractions. no more
disobedience to God. yea!!!!!!!
" i say you my God,
you are my God!!!!!! "
hohoho. FINALLY! 2 converts from
zhonghua and they are sec2!!!!!!!
buahaha. one still ask before his
parents if he become christian, can
anot? lol the parents don't mind !!
alright man. the other one also very
responsive. thank God for God using
mandl to reach out to zhonghuas!
shall followup on one guy tomorrow.
another one not confirm yet hehee.
arh. today is the last youth clm o.o
got disadvantage and also
advantage. disadvantage is that we
can't receive any direct teaching from
pastor jeff other than sermon. but
advantage is that this will also spur
us go ulm lol. please pray for the 2
converts today... PLEASE! not just
retain but also become on-fire
servants for Christ!! finally. after so
long. last convert was during sept?
wow. 4 months o.o but still not
satisfy. must really see them grow!!
anyway, real tired man. -_______-"
next time not gonna sleep so late
on the day before service. lol. i was
so bored yesterday midnight that i
edited some photos. lol. arh.. i go
now .. hehe. er. before i go i share
what i receive during clm, one thing
i need to ask myself often is that,
is there things i love more than God.
must really check myself often. yea.
ok. ciao now! -gone-
Saturday, January 24, 2004
back! o.o so tired. slept in the car
just now. oh ya. my aunt today told
me to grow fatter. o.o but i don't
know how. don't tell me eat alot.
that answer is lame lol. anyway,
wah my elder sis actually want to
go lasalle to study design and she
is good in designing o.o! but don't
know whether she really go study
there anot. i also want to study in
that school instead of poly lol. hoho.
later i join the school with my elder
sis together hahaa. still thinking to
join whether poly or lasalle. o.O
betta ciao now tml still need to wake
up early. bye!
Friday, January 23, 2004
hoho. now at my uncle's house.
shiok. at katong lols. christian
family hehee. :( this year angpow
only got around $250. kaos. so
few. i remembered why this year
so few liao. last year i went to my
father's club, then all the aunties
gave $10+ each. no wonder last
year i got so much. o.o anyway,
wah my uncle's mouse is wireless
and the mouse is as tiny as the
size of two fingers. hahaha. wah
most of my relatives i mean.. like
those younger than me, all super
young. sec1 or pri school. some
still k2 o.o and some only with the
age of one. -____- and most of
them are girls. bleahs. haha.
hmm. alright man. tomorrow there
will be 2 nonb from zhonghua
coming! from mandl! thank God for
him! :D really hope tomorrow will
touch the two nonbs heart. :D pray
for them! thanks!! hmm. this com
only got msn no icq. so i can't go
icq. hoho. and no games hahaa.
go now liao. nothing more to blog
about. shall blog more when i find
something to blog when i reach
home. -ciao!-
rain and rain and rain!! haiyo..
donno what's wrong with the sky
nowadays. o.o this year angpow $
so few. -askdhajklsdhoahsdasd-
waiting for my 2 sis to get ready.
bah. girls always do thingss soooo
slow. (okok, not all) woke up so
early to get donation card from
daniel at serangoon mrt. hohoho.
suppose to meet 9.30am i 9.26am
woke up. o.o -sleepy- good bye
dudes. go brush my teeth, style my
hair then ciao liao. -gone- GATSBY!
bah. the harvest for money today
is so few. 158. argh my sis got
162. -______- someone did not
give me same amount of angpow!
lol. real bored sia. at aunt's house
whole day. slept for few hrs o.O
i think tomorrow shall be even more
'fun' than today. haha. will be going
to lotsa of houses tml. -ciao-
Thursday, January 22, 2004
o.o kinda boring cny.. was
playing gunbound with kok
when it's 12am lol.. anyway,
wasted $20 on haircut at
serangoon central salon.. lame
sia. i was shock to hear $20..
o.o but not i pay lol. o.o bought
a RED shirt from mandl's shop.
demanded by my mum. but
good tactic of mine next time i
buy dark dark colour then she
give me money again to buy
bright bright colour shirts haha
=x jk. don't know what to do
now.. o.o
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
-______-' i want to go outttttt.
but where should i go to? haha.
and who shall be the one going
out with me? getting boreddddd
at home. bleahs. wo yao chu qu.
alright man. back from praying.
hahas. yep, indeed i got alot of
stuffs from God. yea, God told
me not to be deceive by the
devil that i can't do it. not to
entertain evil/negative thoughts
in my mind. the things i do will
succeed because of what God
has done that already given us
victory. doing my very best for
God's work. my very very best.
be more excited and expressive.
slow to speak, quick to listen.
yep. another thing i was
reminded by God is the area of
motives in ian's blog. especially
when we write down our qt
learnings. do we write down
because we really know some
things about God or do we write
something because we have to.
don't do things for the sake of
doing it ritualisticly. know why
we wrote what we wrote. yea!
oh ya. my mum asking me to call
people come bai nian hahaa. o.o
and the ang pow she give will be
$10. wah so much right.. i think i
can only receive 20+ from her..
aiyer.. lol betta than nothing, hoho
syekit may receive the ang pow
tomorrow :p ok! off to read the
Word with a renewed and refreshed
heart. :D
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
hmm. had 'matthew' caregroup
today. no nonb. so percerk. -_-
hais. and two of my sheeps said
they will come in the end don't
know fly where. arghs. but in
the end we still continue every
thing although changed alot of
stuffs. arhh. wah today syekit
vomit. scare me sia. anyway,
wanna thank God for having
clarence as our new brother!!
wow, he is really
powerful-responsive LOL. he
can talk to me like know me for
few months haha. he's a good
seed! haha. then after the
event, woo nea1 and nea3 went
to eatttttt. reunion dinner. $49
in total. wooo. oh ya. if you all
got see kok's blog, his picture
wah. today i saw this scenery at
the sky in SERANGOON! o.o lol
told kok he went 'wow' lol. today
i really need to sit down and
really intercede, pray, talk to God.
expecting some things from God
during the prayer! bye! -ciao-
Monday, January 19, 2004
woo. what a day. o.o after school it
had really wasted my time. -bah-
my library duty need to be cover-up
next week argh.. i was in the library
after doing my homework, sat down
and read magazine thinking that i
was ON duty, in the end the person
in charge say, i did not do anything
o.o he did not tell me to do
anything bleahs. hais wasted 1hr.
and today is really a rainy day man.
afternoon until now, rain and rain.
anyway, went to clm at rc with
eelee. refreshed after the worship.
repents of some stuffs i did today
to my classmate o.o although it's
his fault. shall apologise tomorrow.
anyway, argh feel sooo gekkkkk.
when eelee said about any
testimonies. but i didn't really have
any testimonies! arghs.. shall have
alot soon man!! hmm.. saw alot of
points seems to be in my group at
the last page of teaching.. gonna
tap on these areas to really see
growth. after clm, we suppose to
laor yu shen, haha in the end don't
have the full ingredients o.o in the
meanwhile, replaced jeremy's role
of acting a LUOHAN. o.o and i
looked real lame in the skit. haha.
anyway, no nonb confirm coming.
but most probably there will be
one VI coming lol. anyway, gtg.
prepare cg stuffs, do homework.
-ciao-
Sunday, January 18, 2004
.. back. from everywhere. -_______-
my back hurts. been standing for
hours. bleahx. daniel met me at
dhoby ghaut. then went to buy
one long sleeve shirt at ps. after
that went to the new food court
and daniel told me about vision!
:D gonna fast and pray for a
specific and personal vision that i
really want to see. after that,
waited for aaron the montfort guy
at dhoby ghaut mrt for 1hr haha.
but nvm at least i read few
chapters of psalms. woo david is
such a great person. the way he
write his songs, really can see
how he really LOVE God. can't
wait to read psalms for my qt after
i finish new testament. arhh. went
to ps with aaron, can't find
anything. went to heeren. can't
find anything. went to centrepoint.
can't find anything. went back to
serangoon. go mandl's shop and
everything was settled hahaa.
bought two jeans and one formal
shirt. for 100 o.o and now i'm
gonna chiong my homeworksssss.
arhh!! >.< -gone-
wow, service yesterday was woOOo.
especially the sermon and praise :D
hahaa. after prayer meet, the
nea-ian and nec-ian went back to rc!
then wait for coach to come and pick
us up :D so fun.. one day man..
peicai will have it's own coach :D we
sang praise in the coach.. hahas.
woo. during praise in service. i
jumped like mad.. really soo grateful
that i'm able to love God..!!! but
there is also consequences. LOL my
specs i put in my pocket. i jump and
jump. hohoho. guess what happen?
lol. my specs broke hahaa. after
service then i realised it -__- nvm. i
want to get 1 new specs also. was
so touch during altar call when pastor
jeff said about. when we reach
heaven. you saw JESUS. the one
whom you are sacrificing, the one
whom you are persevering, the one
whom you LOVE!! when i heard this,
i almost cried.. i long for that day
when i see Jesus!! but i don't want to
die now la. i want to do more for
God. was so touched about what
pastor said. then i talked to my
group for 10min about what God
really wants to see. arhh.. hope that
what i said really touch my group's
heart.. argh don't want to see them
just live their life like normal.. !!!!!!
Friday, January 16, 2004
wow. life is real short. thought i was
going to die, just only, i was choked
by vegetable. thank God able to you
know. make it come out instead of
being choked for very long and die.
anyway, daniel met me today hoho.
now i know how to solve the
problemsss.. really want to do more
for God.. hehee... mission detdilper
:D determination, diligence and
perseverance. hehee. told daniel i
want to be a photographer hahaa.
he quite amazed >.< yep. gonna
buy new year clothesssss. but first
thing i will buy is BELT! o.o lols. i'm
too skinny to have a gum-gum-ho
jeans. yea man. shall walk towards
this year mission. must sit down
and really plan and think!! oh ya!
met-up with zhexing today hahhaa.
he's real funny guy. lols.. see this
when we devote ourselves to
computer, we will play,
when we devote ourselves to God,
we will pray.
it rhymes ar? lol. zhexing created it!
hahaa. :P great things happening
ahead.. woo.
persevereperseverepersevere
persevereperseverepersevere
persevereperseverepersevere.
Thursday, January 15, 2004
oh ya, i just thought of one thing!
i want to be a photographer next
time! taking photographs is sooo
interesting hahas. yesterday i was
surfing the net and i saw this
camera.. wow. 10megapixel i think
but it's expensive. i think i will buy
it when i have the $$$. hahaa..
woo. just saw one very interesting
photo in deviantart!
rain1man.deviantart.com can go
visit and see his photos!! woo nice
yea. had cg at my house today
hoho. thank God for today.
shared Christ to syekit's classmate
during cg. although he did not
receive Christ, but it will be
sooner or later man. because
he say next time then receive
Christ. i didn't tell him why is it
a urgency to receive God!! argh.
wasted. nvm shall continue to
persevere and sowing. kokleng
group got 1 convert! thank God.
street outreach in school. gonna
pray for retention. hmm. two days
not in school -_-' don't even know
whether tomorrow able to go or
not. prayerfully i will be able to
go. if not i will not be able to catch
up on my studies o.o! homework
homework now! -gone-
.. arghh.. gastric is starting it's work
on me again. argh!!!!
still did not went to school today.
gastric gastric. zzz.. hais.
before God tell me about my group,
God tell me what happen to me??
what is in me that is needed to be
break? what is the thing in my life
that needed a breakthrough? open
my spiritual eyes!! i want to see!!!
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
didn't go to school. o.o don't want to
go. jk. was down with gastric and
fever. i guess my physical body can't
support much longer. -bah- argh.
today suppose to have caregroup.
what's the attendance? 3 people
including me. feeling so frustrated.
always like that.
really don't know what did i done
wrong. there's not much time left.
o levels is coming. arghhhhhhh.
God, i want breakthroughs in me!!!
there will be no breakthroughs until
unless God break me!!
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
my heart is crying out. i want to be
the one to make a big difference in
people's lives. but sometimes, i
feel that i'm so limited. i want to do
the things for Christ fully. but with
so much restrictions, studies,
sheeps' problems, time, physical
health, i need guidance. both
physically and spiritually. arrrrr.
i guess. it's me. it's my fault. o.o
-repented- i should do things with
excellence. i should not be so
insensitive to my friend. insensitivity
always happen after i realised i've
done something that is not very
sensitive to people. always happen
after that. hais. gonna be more
sensitive people because it reflects
how much i am sensitive to God.
looking at how brothers&sisters
blogged about how much they really
desire for God. how much they really
love God. this really spurs me to do
something big for my spiritual life.
i want to be like them! desiring,
loving Christ. i want to go deeper in
love with Christ. how i wish i would
have the talents and time to paint
out what's going on around me.
what's happening to me. what's
happening to my group. what's
happening all around my life. whom i
really long for. whom i really need.
whom i really love. i need Him. only
Him. move in me. nothing else. i
don't want things like games,
posessions, distractions. read a
verse in junhuang's blog.
psalm 139:23 Search me, O God,
and know my heart; test me and
know my anxious thoughts.
psalm 139:24 See if there is any
offensive way in me, and lead me in
the way everlasting.
search me, God. let me know what
really is in me. i do not want the
days past just like that. i want each
day to have a touchdown. each day
to have learning lesson. each day
to have breakthroughs. reveal more
of me God.
o.o wat a day man. almost late for
school even though i woke up at
5+am got caught by principal along
with my classmate for not singing
national anthemn. -_-' hais. must
stand in front of the school to sing
it everyday for one whole week.
argh. i don't even understand the
malay words o.o.. sing like no point.
bah. went back to class in the end
just the first period, my classmate
scold me with all his vulgars. o.o
then comes geography lesson. hais.
i didn't get to attend. i can't find my
textbook o.o so i have to stand in
one corner. what's happening sia.
after geo lesson, my english
teacher came in. christian teacher.
my eyes totally cannot support.
o.o slept while doing her work.
she told me if i continue to be like
that, she will call my mum. hais.
feel like telling her not sleeping
enough for 3 days do you think i
can keep myself awake. but i didn't
later she say somemore hais.
what a day. wondering what can i
really learn from today's incidents.
-gone-
Monday, January 12, 2004
tired. tired. >.< for few days didn't
really get to sleep well. feeling abit
sick. haha. don't know. today during
school, i was struggling sia. so
tempted to sleep even during
assembly. but i didn't. phew. then
after school, realised i got library
duty today haha. after that i went
to rc, met up syekit for shepherding.
really wanna thank God for him. he
is so young but yet he is so
responsive towards to the Word but
not every thing though. but at least
he understands why we do what we
do. hehe. yep. he bought drink and
potato chips for me without me
requesting. woo. so encourage by
him :) after meetup i went to rc
sleep for 15min sigh. i was just
slept then syekit came and wake me
up o.o dots. cleanup rc then went to
do homework with kokleng until
8.25pm like that. hoho. i guess i go
sleep now hehe. later wake up. bye!
Sunday, January 11, 2004
fruitful day. why? haha. because i
got to do my homework with brand
new attitude. lol. i enjoy doing my
home work. and it's chinese.
miracle?!? lol. thank God for the
changed of attitude towards
studies. really wanna glorify God
through my results. hope i will
make a great impact in studies for
sec5 before i leave this school XD
coreteam meeting was also today,
p&w using cd hehe. so great. after
that chiong my chinese homework
at mac. do until 9.30pm like that.
hoho. shiok sia. anyway, i'm tired.
lol.. woke up at 7+am when i slept
at 3+am last night. went to help
my sheep do his flyer job. o.o.. i'll
be waking up later again to do my
homework & qt hehee..
i go rest now.. bye!
one thing before i sleep hehe..
thanks for all who visit my blog and
read it.. yep.. thanks to titus,
kokleng, dingchuen, joel, ian,
jeremy, timothy, junliang, jonathon,
debbie, xiaoting and the regular
tagger sophia lols.. yep you guys
played a big part man. that is to
hold me accountable of what i had
blogged! hehe. yep. this is one
thing why i want to blog hoho. :D
and also thanks for all the
encouragements and advices in the
tagboard XD you guys will receive a
huge reward in heaven. LOL gone!
it's not about me. it's not about you.
it's about God working through me
and you. this is the thing that gave
me hope. =) yep. gonna move
forward man. gonna be stretch,
pro-active learner. today seems to
talk alot about love. prayer meet
jasmine said about love. service,
forgot who said about love. daniel
meeting said about jesus is our
lover. wooo. it seems to be very
direct that God reminding me about
loving God is the most basic thing
in christian life. anyway, bought a
new bag buaha. $71 o.o so ex man.
saw one bag same shop, $178 o.o
real big lol but i don't need so big.
anyway, i think my bag is for those
skydiver. lol the bag put wat aircraft
warning thing inside. -_-'.. orange
colour.. no blue bah..nvm still like it
hahaa. anyway, today ne unite.
peng. very lame sia we called
ourselves nerds. -_____-. but nvm..
didn't won the game bah. did lotsa
of stupid stuffs.. woo. quite surprise
even for myself that i'm able to do
the hula hoop thing LOL. lame! oh..
i think i need a belt soon LOL..stupid
sia my jeans keep dropping.. hoho..
another week is gone. bleah. so
fast. got lotsa of chinese homework
to do. 50 zhaoju.. woo 3zhuowen.
few lijiewonda.. o.o gonna die soon
lol.. jk.. hope i can finish by tml..
hehe shall stop here! gonna
remember man. it's about God not me!!
Friday, January 09, 2004
o.o.. arh..confirmation so few..argh.
with no nonb >.<.. just trustin God
for some as my sheeps who are
going school for orientation will
invite them to service. so tired right
now.. but still don't feel like
sleeping. anyway, i think this is
quite meaningful. pastor jeff said
about this that God would rather die
than to live without us. our purpose
in life is to love God! when we love
Him, we will want to please Him. so i
modify abit.. God would rather die
than to live without OUR love. wow
see how much God really appreciate
us. how much he really loves us.
yep. love.. woah.. this is what God
had spoke for this entire week.
arh. went to the whole hmv found
nothing that is nice. -____- tired sia
but i think it's also quite fruitful, get
to know my contact even more. haha
he is my age but he is sec2 now..
because he came from china. hmm..
any kind souls tomorrow can
accompany me to buy bag at PS?
arrh.. kokleng cannot, so many
people cannot. brb!
buahaha. going to meet my contact
later! hhaa.. just asked him whether
he free to accompany me to go
orchard buy bag =X so far hahaa.
thank God he don't mind. hope he
will come service again tomorrow!
hahahaha. i'm still online!!!!!! it's
gonna be 3am soon. bleahs. still
chionging my homework. and it's
chinese somemore. lol. don't even
know how to do. got 3 stacks to
finish. but i think i only do one
because i think the teacher only
wants one? hope so. lol. one whole
week is gonna pass. everyday since
monday i've been sleeping at 2am+
woah. and this is the first week..
hohoo. guess gonna replan my
timetable. hmm. challenging o.o!
every week, God never fails to
refresh me and God never fails to
speak to me. God spoke to me
about love. knowing God is not just
about knowledge. it's about love.
when you love God, you will do
anything to try to please Him. love
never fails. what does this means?
love includes trust and dependancy.
trusting and depending on God will
never fail. this is the words from God
when i was praying to him just now.
i want to live a life that loves God.
knowing God equals loving God. if
you love God, you will desire to know
Him and you will be knowing Him
everyday more. but you just know
Him by name, by knowledge without
love, there will be no conviction.
there will not be this word,
excellence, in serving God. wow. God
answered my prayer real fast. i just
post my prayer request in a christian
website at 11+pm. and now i
received the words from God.
Revelation 2:4 Yet I hold this
against you: You have forsaken your
first love.
God wrote this is because He
wanted to let us know knowing God
is all about loving God, trusting in
God, rely on God. the most basic
thing for christians to do is to LOVE
God.
Thursday, January 08, 2004
dots. this is real stressful. o.o just
the first week of school i faced soooo
many challenges. i guess it's really a
need to pass my role to someone.
o.o but who will be the one? for me
now, guess i've to do my part. trust
in God, if God allows it, God will
help us overcome it. yea. -gone-
i hope really nothing will stop
me from serving this God. this God
that existed even before we are
born. this God that save man from
eternal death. this God is whom we
can find true love.
Graham, 85, claims to have
preached the Gospel to more
live audiences than anyone in
history and has taken his message
to more than 210 million people
in more than 185 countries.
are you amazed? i'm amazed.
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
arh. taking a break now from
preparation for cg. hahahaa. got
$150. $100 from my sister. $50
from my mum. buahah? debbie said
i talk like kokleng o.o! oh no. i don't
want to be like him LOL. jk
woo. it's time to chiong homeworkkk!
and prepare my cg. hoho. busy day!
-ciao- bye!
buahaha. getting a new comp soon
after i moved house haha. my sister
say my father will buy a small LCD tv
put at every roo, shiok ar. lols. but i
don't watch tv o.o unless he buy PS2
HAHAHA =XxX kk stop imagine
haha. go qt liao hoho. tml school
again! everyday there seems to be
alot of challenges. in the area of
physical strength. o.o oh ya. got
house warming buaha. invite all my
contacts go LOL! win liao. they sure
enjoy. woot! excited excited! not to
forget conviction!!! :D gone!
Tuesday, January 06, 2004
woo.. so exciting got so many things
to blog today. woo. today in school
sigh, was so tired that keep falling
asleep o.o teacher scold me
:( *bah* guess will be able to
sleep EARLIER today hahaa. just
reach home haha so late sia, after
school, went to get contacts, able
to get 4 like that. some sec1 look
real mature haha. fellowship for
a while after evax, then went to
RC to wait for daniel with syekit.
woo, slept at rc balcony. hahaa.
so cooling. lols. didn't have any
good and long sleep nowadays
hais. hope i can cope my time very
well. after that, went to syekit's
house woo, just behind junhuang's
house haha. condo! woo. very nice
got swimming pool, cg next time
maybe can put there hahaa. his
mum treat us(daniel&me) pizzahut
hahaa. yep learn lotsa of stuffs
today especially after meeting
syekit at his house, we went to s11
woo. shiok, daniel told me lotsa of
things i need to change and do.
first, be a pro-active LEARNER not
passive learner. so if i ask some of
you about some questions help me
ar. secondly, conviction!! i really
need to be convicted about what
am i doing in order for my guys
to be convicted. conviction will come
with faith and urgency. alright man.
tomorrow shall be the day when i
can apply all these. another thing is
touchdown in my shepherding! BUT
before that could happen, i think i
need to change in the area of
conviction first. spirit imparts spirit!!
woo. very grateful to daniel. now i
know what i should do in order to
reach my goal is to be UL by end of
this year!! this year for me gonna be
a tough year man. o levels, family,
ministry. but must chiongggg!! not
give up :D hehe. gone!
hoho.. gonna be dead meat soon.
just the first few days of o level yr
and i have suffered from sleepless
nights. just finished my dnt stuffs.
bah. i'm gone now to sleep! please
don't tear my dnt!! -_-''
Monday, January 05, 2004
woo. fruitful day today :D haha.
thank God for my change of
attitude towards studies haha.
i didn't sleep. o.o did i? nono, i
did sleep, hahaa. but maybe
1min. i did not sleep on
purpose due to you know..
physically i'm very tired. slept
3+am again yesterday hahaa.
homework, qt, homework again.
it seems to be very exciting as
days goes by. woo. syekit first
time go cg404 meet :D this is
just the beginning! more to
come man.. hahaa. woah. finally
found the word that i'm searching
for two days. that is privilege!
yep. eelee taught about rejoicing
while serving God. daniel also
talked about Jesus when he was
crucified on the cross, the people
mocked him saying if you are Christ,
save yourself.. something like that.
but Jesus can choose to save
himself and show himself to man
that he is Christ but he didn't. why?
because God wanna use us, humans
woo.. powerful. it's so privilege
man to serve God!! gonna chiong
man. balance my 3 areas well,
ministry, studies, family. harvest is
cominggggg!
people in the world seems to
be so lost of what they are
doing everyday. we, as the
ambassadors of Christ, are
called to advocate the words
of Christ to the lost.
"I am the way, the truth and
the life. No one comes to the
Father except through me."
before we can see harvest
coming, we need to have this
very important thing.
a compassion heart for the lost.
let's not serve God without the
heart of Christ with us.
let's serve God as how Christ will
serve if He was in you right now.
this is what i learnt from my QT!
woo. Acts is a happening book!
gonna resume my homework now!
haha. 2.11am now, and need to
wake up at 6.40am. God, give me
strength and heart of compassion!
Sunday, January 04, 2004
o.o.. it's 11.30pm and yet i'm
gonna start pasting my articles
and writing the vocabs.. o.o..
don't know what time will i be
sleeping tonight. *bah* gone
today went to combined team
meeting woo, daniel told me
something about the seats in
nexus. time flies real fast, this
year daniel is going to NS
during august, this year is
gonna be my last year in school,
this year is gonna be last year
for most of the brothers in nea..
wow, i'm gonna be 17 this year
3 more years after this year, i'm
20! -_- that's real fast. after oct
20th of this year, i will be 3 years
old in this family. i guess it's time
to chionggggg, no time to lose.
the more we drag, the more we
lag, the more time we lost. o.o
after the combined team meeting,
went to eat with peter, junhuang
, sihan after eating, went to
watch 'Changing of the Guards' at
istana park.. very interesting. they
will be there to perform every first
sunday of the month, next combine
team meeting, i think i ask the
whole nea to go and look at some-
thing new..tomorrow having school
and alright man. after school,
comes cg404. my sheep is gonna
go for cg404 feel so excited for him
for growth as he really desires for
growth. oh ya. mandl gave me one
real big encouragement card :D thx
man. he said i need to be firm some
times, ok man. you said it. i do it
haha kidding. thanks mandl :) yea.
thinking of pasting all my
encouragement cards that i received
on my new room after i moved.
haha. ok, off to do my homework. bye
Saturday, January 03, 2004
o.o wasted $6.10 today morning,
bah took cab to nexus.. woke up
at 9.30am when i suppose to
reach nexus at 10? o.o reached
there around 10.42am.. -_-
bought 2 more notebook also.
gonna use it for studies or
ministry, quite fedup anyway,
went home saw one backslider
with the nick nea3, will grow
smaller and smaller until it left
nothing. in msn.. i was soo..
frustrated then i shoot him back,
'people leave the church but the
church still grow because God is
real' o.o .. haiz.. pekcek. bah.
gone
Friday, January 02, 2004
dots. today very lame lorrrrr!!!!! my
class only got 12 people. only got 4
boys hahaha. my register is 10 o.o
lame sia. ahha.. but i think also
need to thank God for that.. no
more naughty students in my class
to disturb ahaa.. wow.. realise i got
totally a changed attitude towards
school.. haha.. not gonna sleep in
class any more hehe.. also gonna
work hard for o levels!~ anyway,
my confirmation is quite low o.o but
i'm awaiting for great harvest man.
6 contacts i'm very close with haha
gonna let them know Christ one day
Thursday, January 01, 2004
wahha.. abit anti-climax but then
my sheep called ian by pronouncing
it as fishball(in chinese) LOL...!!!!!!!
=X sec1 people are real funny haha..
hm. i'm gonna make a convenant
with God!! that i will not leave Him
no matter what's gonna happen
this year, the problems and
challenges are for me to grow not
for me to run away! and i will not
allow any temptationssssss to
take over me, i will flee away from
temptations! i shall guard my
spiritual life and really work
diligently in growing my group in
the aspect of shepherding and
evangelism!! i'm gonna aim for a
potential unit for peicai and
caregroup in zhonghua! do well in
my o lvls and closer relationship
with my family! yea. this shall be
my everyday prayer for 2004!!!
happy new year 2004 to all! :D haha
very funny 12am i msg all the ppl in
msn and icq, and tell them happy
new year then one guy from msn is
from new york hahaa. the time there
is 12h difference lols. then he told
me it's still not new year yet still got
13h o.o lol..wow today caregroup is
really crazy! lols.. went to meet
yongwee and zhexing to buy food
for caregroup took a long time to
cook everything. hoho.. we played
water bomb. got 2 nonb came also!!
but one don't want to participate >.<
anyway, my sheeps and the nonb
all aim me o.o got me all wet *bah*
but it's quite fun haha thank God for
those came early to do the stuffs..
haha. shall have another caregroup
at friday, today caregroup can't talk
much because not enough time arh!
o.o anyway, i'm feeling weird
physically o.o i have no appetite to
eat for few meals, just skip it or just
throw away the food.. don't know
why like that.. then my leg aching,
flu is not gone since last few weeks
hoho.. hope it's not any diseases
but just common sickness.. but i got
a feeling that i got a disease o.o
don't know .. also have a feeling
when i wake up tomorrow i will see
Jesus liao -peng- guess i need
some rest.. hehe. ciao liao bye!
pray for my physical body to be
okay! thanks! oh ya another thing
is that o.o i seems to have hearing
problems ar.. today went to mandl
father shop.. his father repeat 3
times but i still act i know something
then i just say don't know lol.. then
tuesday sophia repeated alot of
times what she want to say and yet
i couldn't get what she say o.o.. but
now i know la.. is either my ear or
your mouth lols. ok byebye lol
