Monday, June 28, 2004
first day of school did not
turned out good. my chemistry
teacher is leaving peicai when
he was disappointed with some
of my classmates. -_- this will
be his last week in peicai or
in my class? and there were
rumors about my class merged
with another class. i just hope
that it won't change. having a
small class of just 12 students
is far way better than 40
students in a class. yea. woo.
o level chinese listening compre
is on this saturday. asking
gideon for tips about listening
on thursday. yea.
For when I'm weak, then I am
strong! :D
Sunday, June 27, 2004
blood donation was unsuccess-
ful. >.< i need to give an
official consent for blood
donation, not a hand-written
consent -_- bleahs. nvm. you
cannot donate blood if you
are sick on the day or even
three weeks ago. that's real
strict. yea. better keep my-
self healthy next time, i'm
always sick. that's what i
really hate -_- anyway, after
waiting for eelee who is the
only northeast to donate
blood, gideon and me went for
nea clm at hougang mall mac.
i went for some skateboarding
with my teacher, ian. hahas.
and some windowshopping with
my shepherd, gi and ian. we
went to the library after
that. come think of it now,
library is a v. v. good place
to go. yep. after that they
went to my house to do some
stuffs. that ian went to do
some sadist cruelism on a
ferrari. hahs. i never
expected this fellowship with
my shepherd and sheepmate
turned out to be a fruitful
learning opportunity. especially
from gideon. yep. :D i'm gonna
ask God for wisdom in having a
quick mind to solve problems
and read some leadership and
communication books. yep.
tomorrow is gonna be a new day!
it's time to apply what i
learned during the june holiday.
it's time to put my hands into
actions, put my security in God
and fear no more! yep. still
got two more subjects of home-
work for me to do. shall go now!
gone! :D
Saturday, June 26, 2004
woohoooooo! this is the best
june holiday i've ever spent.
i used to slack alot during
june holidays. thank God i
did not waste it this year.
brothers' night was great man.
really wanna thank God for
being so patient with me...
God is always there waiting for
me. man.. how can you find such
a great great great God like
Him? literally he waited for
me to come out of my struggle
for 4-6months if i'm not wrong.
and that's very long. was sooo
touched by God's love for me
that tears of joy and gratitude
just flowww.. God is so real.
what can i do than to serve Him?
play games? play til when? o.o
enjoy the pleasures of the world?
for what? all are meaningless.
yep. thank God for nicodemus and
syekit for coming to brothers'
night.
okay, now is the funny part.
woah, i slept beside one brother
during brothers' night. seriously,
i didn't sleep well hahas. firstly,
it was so cold -_-, secondly,
that brother was making those
sounds like he had just eaten
shark fin =.= he kept coughing and
snoring. hahas. kok and me took
one crazy photo =X hahas. nvm.
saturday! woah. God changed the
faithless me! o.o was kinda
affected by something. but God
never fail to secure me with His
presence. yep. CLM was great too.
many times we can't do great
things for God is because we do
not understand our identity in
Christ.
pray and pray and pray! july is
coming! it's time to chiong ! :D
80 brothers in northeast by end
aug!! :D
tomorrow i'm going for blood
donation! -__- i heard my mum
saying that i will need to donate
one whole packet of blood -_-.
i'm afraid that the one who
really needed blood is me. haas.
my elder sister is working o.o.
so she can't go for blood donation
nvm, try next time.
okay ciao! :D know my identity
in Christ!! :D
Friday, June 25, 2004
woo. i'm eating prata with peter
later! lols. anyway, my fasting
has really really really helped
me to maximise and manage my
time much more better than
spending time on other stuffs.
gonna have a great great time
with NEA & NEC and especially
a great time with God later
during the brothers' night.
this just hit me.
we are enjoying our life
right now because we have
Jesus. but people who don't
even know about Jesus or
have not come to know Jesus
are living such a meaningless
life.
people need God.
let me be the vessel!!!
Thursday, June 24, 2004
this is dots. i was talking on
the phone with someone and i
left my unsaved blogger and
suddenly my computer fainted
and it restarted by itself. :(
o.O nvm.
i was talking about the old
folks thingy. yep. i was kinda
fearful when i went in the ward
with ian and zijie. o.O every of
the old folks started
looking at us and the room was
sooooo quiet. o.o the old folks
were just sitting in the chair,
doing nothing. i went to talk
to one old man. he asked where
do i stay, i told him jalan kayu.
and few minutes later, he asked
the same question again. and
again, after few minutes later,
he asked me the same question.
people may find it funny but i
find them v. kelian. o.O
people may take this time to
curse God because of what
happened to the old folks.
if God is really unfair, unjust,
the old folks would have been
dead by now and suffering from
eternal death which is much much
much more worser than what they
are suffering. at least when
they are still alive, they may
have some chances of receiving
Jesus and recovering from their
sickness.
yea. God will always gives us
the best. :D
Wednesday, June 23, 2004
woo. yo. yeah. tomorrow NE is
gonna visit old folks homeeee.
it's the second time visitation
for me. the first time was with
my relatives to visit someone.
i bet it will definitely be a
memorable event. yep. ok. gtg
bye!
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
the deep cry has been heard.
Monday, June 21, 2004
back from wfl and shepherding
with Gideon! yea. didn't go to
school again. arghs. i need to
drag myself up tomorrow for
school not gonna let any head-
ache or overslept to stop me
from going to school to do my
DNT.
WFL was great, interesting and
fun! hahas. jessie taught about
the teaching on BGR. hahas. :D
the first question that she gave
was already so 'wah'. hahas.
also learned about the what
relationship thingy. not sure
how to spell the word. yea.
after WFL, Gideon took me for
a somerset window shopping before
shepherding. hahas. look around
in shops. and that's part of the
holistic needs that he had did.
social needs. yea. woo. thanks
to Gideon's hardwork. i asked
him for how-to-plan-thingy. yea.
he came up a detailed plan on
planning. yep. wah. really wanna
thank God for him. he slept for
only 1hr+ today because of his
army and yet he did not use his
physical tiredness as an excuse
for not serving God and his
people. yea. ok. gtg! blog more
next time!
Saturday, June 19, 2004
oh yar! arghhhhhh!!! i only gained
1kg out of these whole holiday!?!?
and after i ate literally much much
more than i used to yet still only
gained one kg. and when i weighed
my weight, it's with a full stomach
o.o 45kg o.o God please make me
fatter so that i will be able to
make it for blood donation.. o.o
yea. and my elder sis going for
blood donation!
wooo! this is the greatest week
i've ever ever spent with God.
yea. i experienced so much new
insights about God personally,
especially in my quiet time.
really. this God that i know,
He rocks :) and...
YESHH!!!!!!! SINLEE came. God
is faithful!! hahas. i trust God,
i just went in faith and so
called pleaded him to come after
LAN :D hahas. and guess why he came
in the end? God did the job. yea.
he said this, 'flip coin.' wooo.
when i heard this, immediately i
said this to myself, definitely,
sure WIN because i have a God who
wants the best for sinlee. hahahs.
he chose head, i chose tail then.
zhexing threw. and even before he
threw, i trusted God and already
knew that i'm gonna win. =D! ahhas.
so the coin was TAILLLLLLLLLLLL..
hahahaaahahaha... i was so crazy at
that time.. lol. don't play this
type of things with God man..
hahaas. :D but i think he definitely
had a changed heart towards
Christianity. hahas. seriously,
inviting him to come is like pulling
a 100kg bull with your last finger.
hahs. but God made the way. :D he
don't ENJOY at all when he's with
crowd. yea. but today woah. he's
different. he was responsive towards
pastor preaching and even raised up
his hand for conversion though he
said he raised up because many
people were raising but i believe
God will make A WAY when there's
no way. and i really believe sinlee
will definitely receive Christ one
day because God wants the besttttt
for him. yeayea.
oh another thing...
NEA HIT 40!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it's just the beginning man!!!!!
God is faithful and He will bring
us through =D 50 for Jesus end of
August!!!
after service was the NE dmm. yep.
what i want to apply to be more
and more pro-active to ask around
stuff. and cease the opportunity
to learn through asking. yea yea.
and maturity is seen through how
quick you repent. yep =D blog
more next time! bye!
just finished talking on phone
with two guys about games lols.
for 2hrs? -.- hahs. they can
really talk something for sooo
long and yet not bored with it.
anyway, gonna pray!! for sinlee,
to come for service tomorrow and
receive Christ!! :D
anyway! great day. yep. went to
do community care at hougang. i
met lotsa of different types of
responses. yea. and the most
special experience that i knew
was the last house i went. there
were two kids. one sister and a
younger brother. they were alone.
so i went up to the door and
started talking about the family
ties. i realised one thing,
these two siblings were physically
deformed and disabled. they do
understand what i say, just that
their faces were deformed, their
legs were disabled. woahh.. when
i realised that, i went speechless.
i was like.. can i pray for you
to be cured.. o.o it really shows
how BLESSED are we, as normal
human being. we don't need to go
through what they were facing...
we are blessed to be a blessing.
yep. after the event was prayer
meet. yep. i was asking God for
revival in my group and in me!
yea. breakthrough doesn't comes
from camp but it comes from our
decision.
God, You're the best =D
Friday, June 18, 2004
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O God, help me to see people
through Your eyes. change the
hearts of the people that they
will be selfless. let not this
be a temporal conviction. but
let this conviction lies deep
within me that lasts forever!
O God, let there be a renewal
of hearts and lives. O God, let
there be a revival in peicai!!
it will never be the same ever
again. things will change.
things will change because of
what You had done in our lives.
O God, this is my need, my desire.
let there be a revival in me.
everyday with a deeper insight,
everyday with a deeper conviction.
romans 8:37-39 [No, in all these
things we are more than conquerors
through him who loved us. 38 For I
am convinced that neither death nor
life, neither angels nor demons,
neither the present nor the future,
nor any powers, 39 neither height
nor depth, nor anything else in all
creation, will be able to separate
us from the love of God that is in
Christ Jesus our Lord.]
Thursday, June 17, 2004
woo. nice song! Brant Christopher
:D :D :D anyway, i found one image
host which is v. v. good :D yea.
www.photobucket.com <- imagehost
Direct / Hot linking allowed
2,500 megs bandwidth p/month
100 megs disk space(2,500 pics)
www.proboards.com <- forum
anyone knows of any free and v.
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need it for northeast website.
thank you.
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
woo. 3rd day of my 48days fast-
ing. 45 more days left. yea.
i have controlled myself from
recent soccer matches. eg. euro
2004. hahas. i didn't touch my
xbox at all. i did not go friends-
ter and deviantart. but one thing
i did was online and MSN. >.< but
for reasons. yea.
from now onwards, i'm gonna take
note of those who borrowed money
from me. just wanna to be a good
stewardship of money instead of
just lending without remembering.
yea. i must use the money i have
wisely.
anyway, today NEA had a great
lunch together. yea. thank God
for those who cooked all the food.
played LAN with NEA1 and with
some of my guys. arr. quite a
number of people fell sick this
week. 4 of my sheeps were down
because of fever , flu, cough.
yea. o.o gonna pray for healing!
God is really a God of miracles.
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
wooo..! it's a fruitful day i
had spent!! :) yep. i woke up
in the morning and went to
school for DNT. hmm. and a fly-
ing wood piece hit my head -_-
hahas. thank God that it's not
a v. sharp and big piece of
wood. yea. yep. after that i
went to mac to get RC key and i
did not use it o.o hahas. anyway,
i think i need to buck up on my
studies.. it seems that every
questions are so foreign to me.
hahas. yea. need to plan out for
my life. ministry, family,
studies :D yep.
had a great time with gideon.
he really has heart all for God.
yep. learned alot alot of stuffs
today. hahas. and i'm so greedy
that i ate up gideon's shepherding
time with dingchuen. lols. yea.
gideon also taught me how to plan.
yea. fail to plan? plan to fail!
o.o yep. after gideon's shepherding,
gideon and me visited my sheep. yep.
can really see his changes and his
growth since the day he came to
know Christ. yepyep.
i'm gonna depend on God more by
praying. :D life with God is so
fun and interesting. prayyyyyy!
Monday, June 14, 2004
i don't want to waste this life
away. i want to live my life for
You. i want to trust in Your
promises, for You always know
what's the best for me. i want
to know You more and more.
everyday of my life, a deeper
insight, a deeper love, an initimate
relationship until i see Your
face. i want to experience You
with a new insight everyday.
luke18:27-[Jesus replied, "What
is impossible with men is possible
with God."]
phillipians1:6-[being confident of
this, that he who began a good work
in you will carry it on to
completion until the day of Christ
Jesus.]
His promises and His presence.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
i had just completed the spiritual
giftings 'survey'. yea.. my top 4
spiritual gifts are helps/serving,
missionary, teacher, giving. quite
amazed that missionary was one of
the top three spiritual giftings.
helps/serving was the first. teach-
er and missionary both have the
same score.
okay man! i shall be with faithful
with my spiritual giftings!!! :D
Lord I give You my heart..
was praying and worshipping God
and saw some images, about the
past, about me. i was filled with
gratitude as i see how my life
had changed. it's so amazing of
how God pulled me through many
many things in my life. it's all
by His grace and help. God did not
promise us that Christianity is a
bed of roses but God promised us
that He will never forsake us.
matt 11:12 - [... the kingdom of
heaven has been forcefully
advancing, and forceful men lay
hold of it.]
i need courage and discipline..
there's so much stuffs for me to
do this year. my studies, my
group, my family, there's not
MUCH time left.
rev 3:16 - [So, because you are
lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--
am about to spit you out of my
mouth.]
i want to live my life with Your
purposes. i want to live my life
all for You. i want to do
GREAT things for You.
i'm not going MSN/TV/online/xbox/
friendster/deviantart until end
of july. will only be online
when there's a need. eg. blogging,
email, ne webby, planning,
chatting with sheeps, apologetic
webbies. others? NO MOREEEEEEEEE.
i need to be more focus.
Saturday, June 12, 2004
woo... today's service was great!
XD especially the thai video clip.
woo. the shepherd actually swim to
meet their sheep's needs. that's a
sacrificial example. :D yea. these
are the two things in our life that
we need, God's presence, God's
promises. wooo. these are the best
thing that i can ever need. yep..
thank God today jiankai did came
despite of something that happened.
woo. he sneaked out of house just
to come. woo. and nico!! first time
in shepherd's league. :D thank God
for him. can see his desire for
God. i'm not gonna let the flame
stop burning. i'm gonna keep it
burn!! not gonna repeat the same
mistake again. woo. Gideon did an
impressive job on teaching a lesson
about keeping up our spiritual life.
yea. we need to be consistently
knowing God more because we are
consistently being polluted by the
world everyday. woo.. this is one
of the thing that i learnt. :D
later i'm gonna spend time with God
and have a great time planning with
God for my group, myself. i need to
be focusssssssss and discipline!!!
:D
Friday, June 11, 2004
went to serangoon mac just now.
just for five minutes. hahaas.
went to amk after that with kok
and joel. hahaas. really want to
apologise to joel. i buy stuffs
and i hear the price wrongly as
25. actually it's 35 o.o then
i'm short of seven dollars. felt
so dotssssss. hahaas. went to do
some shopping at sports link with
both of them. alright man! tomorrow
is gonna be a great day. NEA gonna
dye our hair! i'm gonna bring jian
kai to usher! nicodemus to sound!
hahaas. yeah!
Thursday, June 10, 2004
woot! back! it was a v. fantastic
camp, vision-driven life. XD yea.
though it's short but what i
gained from the camp had really
changed me.
'someone's gonna be the first to
build the biggest church, to have
the biggest group in the school
but why not you?'
this is what i responded during
the first night. why not me? let
me be the one that God gonna use
powerfully for His glory's sake.
vision is pictorial, it's a dream.
am i still committed if i don't
see the vision come to past in
this generation? am i persevering
in great faith and believe when
things do not turn out well? let
me just be the one. be the one
that create breakthroughs and
histories. be the one that who He
want me to be. not anything else.
God's vision is for people. yea.
just let me be the one You want me
to be. let me be obedient with
courage and having great trust and
great faith in the midst of
perseverance.
yea. anyway, camp was fun. hahaas.
especially the 'haunted house' game
and the last night. hahas. arh. o.o
i didn't get to copy teaching notes
on lesson 3&4. was doing MM. yea.
thank God for solving problemsss..
in my group.. yea. selfless... this
word. i've been seeing/hearing it
during the camp. selfless.. XD
being selfless but for otherssssss!
Monday, June 07, 2004
o.o just realised that for those
who went for jb they only have
today as rest day. lol. so shiok.
how much spiritual stuffs they
are able to learn o.o going down
to rc soon. after my dinner and
my packing. woo. i don't think i
will be going for tomorrow STU
workshop on o level english. yea.
i'm able to attend one whole full
day + overnight hahaa. tuesday to
wednesday. o.o. this youth camp
only have one full day. that is
wednesday. kinda short. ok, time
to pack my stuffs. buais. camp!!!
prepare our hearts for God to
speak though it's quite a short
camp.. who says God can't speak
during this short camp! woo. gone!
Sunday, June 06, 2004
wahhahaa. called ian and peter just
now when they were still at jb. lol.
heard from them the food there was
wooot. lol. what do you expect from
a five star hotel!? lol. argh.
wasted. i just can't go. anyway,
went for family outing today..with
my uncle, auntie, grandpa, grandma,
and my family. hahas. we went to
eat timsum for breakfast o.o.. and
it's so ex. waste $ o.o. anyway,
after that we went for movie! lol.
day after tomorrow. a nice show.
but i read CNN.com, under the
science & space section, they said
that these kind of major climate
changes won't happen. hahas. but
nice movie anyway. i like the
tornadoessssss. woo. they rox. lol.
after the outing, went for
shepherding at amk. interesting
shepherding. gideon showed me news-
paper articles on people from
different parts of the world fight-
ing for their rights using violence.
yep. we are definitely BLESSED as
we live in such a safe country. yea.
bought a windbreaker for $15! lol.
50% discount at amk. woo. the day
after tomorrow is CAMP hahas. i'm
gonna stay overnight in RC tomorrow.
go school on tuesday morning and go
to NUS after my school. pray and
fasting for tomorrow for my group
and myself. :D let's prepare for
the camp!!!!! :D
Saturday, June 05, 2004
i said it. but i shall said it
again. God is amazingggggggggg!
so gladdddddddd to see him.
hahas. :) thank God for his
decision!!! :D
anyway! another thing! JIANKAI
IS GOING FOR CAMP AND I HAVE
HIS CONSENT FORM RIGHT NOWWWWW!
WOOOOHOOO!! :D 6 people coming
for camp! six lives gonna be
changeddd. six including me!!!
today's worship song,
all i want is, all i want is You,
JESUS!!!!!
all i need is Him!! only Him is
worthy to live for!!
Friday, June 04, 2004
wow. God is soo.. amazing. yea..
He can make gainsssss out of
situations. yea. watched harry
potter with jiankai. o.o i don't
even know also single thingy
about the movie hahas. i didn't
watch any episode before. lol..
but nvm.. just want to spend
time with my new believer.. pray
for him that he can come for
camp and service. yea. quite a
couple of things that i received
from God as learnings today.
perseverance, patience, excellence,
compassion, prayer.
yep. fruitful day!!! XD
Thursday, June 03, 2004
wah. just end off with this.
i fell down in rc's toilet o.O
lol. someone chase me ar... so
i just ran. o.o but the friction
gave way. lols. few slight
scratches ahahh. funny day..
i just want to say this.
i want to go JB CAMP!!! :( hais.
just really hope that i can go..
>.< arhh.
anyway! woo. today cg was a fun
one. fruitful one. i loveeeeee
the worship songs. Lord i live
by Your Word, Lord I give You my
heart. woo.. meaningful song!!!
woo. learned a thing yesterday
when i was preparing my cg about
being selfless. woo.
being selfless but for God and
others.
yep. if our motives of growth is
not selfless, we will not grow.
because we will only tend to grow
to become more self-centered.
once we say, we live for God. the
life that we are living is no
longer us! but others(God as
priority!) yea.
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
hmm. reached home at 10.10pm o.o
my legs are dead. lol. went out
with my relatives with my cousin
and my elder sister. we went to
east coast and do some exercise
by cycling and roller blading.
o.o i don't know how to cycle so
i can only roller blade for more
than two hours. o.o hahs. their
children so funny and cute sia.
one six another three years old.
especially what happened in mac.
hahas. don't know to explain
here. it's just so funny hahaa.
my relatives all are christians.
but not from hope. wasted. hahs.
gotta do some reading to improve
my english in this june holiday.
woo. camp next week. hais. i
can't stay overnight for any
days!! got extra lessons and
also workshop. hais. nevermind.
it's much better than not even
going for camp. hmm. but the
journey to NUS is v. far o.o
gideon told me take buona vista
mrt then change bus 95 .. o.o
don't know where's that. shall
ask again. chinese o level is
over! but more to come. hehe.
challenging lol. ok. gtg. tml
i'm still having school and cg!
buais.
He will give the best for our
needs!
