Tuesday, August 31, 2004
who is God to you?
someone you can turn to when you
are in deep trouble and someone
you turn away and even forget Him
when you find something better that
doesn't even last for eternal?
someone you seek when you need
Him, with grace and love He give
it to you, and someone you took His
grace for granted just because you
wanted your way and dislike His ways?
someone you talk to when you are
in church and someone you forsaked
and forgotten for the rest of the week?
OR
someone you truly love being with,
and from the bottom of your heart,
you know that you love Him no matter
what, even the whole world were to be
against you, even your life sucks to
core, even your closest family or friend
were to leave you, you really know that
He is with you ALWAYS and FOREVER.
you are sensitive to Him, never wanting
to hurt Him with your actions, speech,
your life. everything you do, you
wanted to please Him, you appreciate
the things He've done in others and in
you. and you can really say, i love God,
i live for Him only.
good questions to ask ourselves honestly.
no time to lose. anyone have any o
levels notes/tips for any subjects
except history, biology, f&n, art?
desperately need it! please pass to
me. thanks!
i need to score in my O levels!! not
gonna waste my FIVE years in PEICAI!
arghs. i will never accept F9 to C5!!
it will get me to nowhere if i get those
for O levels!
Monday, August 30, 2004
yoyo :D let me start off with this...
i was late for sunday's meeting at
joochiat! lols. woke up at 9.30am
when the meeting supposed to begin
at 10am. lols. i reached at around
10.30am. anyway, woo.. congrats
the only two northeast representatives
for water baptism. lols jansen and alvin.
yea. hahas. after water baptism, the
brothers went for a soccer match lols.
and kok, dingchuen and me went to
mac to study. and gideon came my
house to overnight. lols. hahas.
anyway, wanna thank God for ian and
kokleng and God for blessing me with
my maths paper1 results. i had been
failing my maths since the start despite
of practising until the last mock exam
which is on last saturday, i got 61/80!
woo. thank God. it's a miracle. serious.
it's not me. it's God. and another was
that Dnt workshop will be open on wed-
nesday! yep. the only day left for me
to complete my dnt artefact. yars.
wanna ask what is a good colour
combination for white? yars. tell me in
the tag. thanks. gtg bye!
Saturday, August 28, 2004
yoo. service was refreshing :D yep.
jasmine have many creative ways for
sermon. ahhas. oh before i blog about
today, i want to thank God for sending
such a patience DNT assistant helping
me with the project. the most dots
thing was that my plastic actually
cracked! -_- hopefully i will be able to
repair it on monday. yep.
anyway, jasmine talked about
opportunities. many times we are not
as powerful as we should be in God,
is because we MISS the opportunities
given to us. yep.
today's event at istana is really very
funny and fruitful. :D whahaas.
especially when huasiang acted as
crazy!!! wahhaas. that's the most
funniest part. :D his expression and
the sudden shout that came from
him was so.. hahahas. anyway, after
the games, eelee taught about follow
up. follow up is one of the area i'm
really weak in. yars. but thank God
for this short practical teaching which
gave me guidance in most commonly
faced areas. yep. oh. another thing,
aaron shared his testimony. :D
hahas. okays. i'm now suppose to do
something, but i realised i do not have
the program. -_- keep assuming that
i have. nevermind. downloading it now.
okays. gtg. all the best for all the
follow-uppers.
Thursday, August 26, 2004
yoyo. woo. thank God for today.
and wednesday. :D i passed my
2.4 for the first time in my
entire secondary life hahas.
thank God for giving me strength
mentally to run til the very end.
wow. deadline for dnt was told to
be next week. but i don't know
why they changed it to today.
so i went to finish my artefact
from 2pm to 7:10pm lols. not
adding six periods of DNT. which
is three hours. lols. but thank
God my friend went to ask my
teacher and they said the deadline
is still next week :D but because
of this 'rumor', i've actually
finished 3/4 of the artefact. :D
lol. sense of urgency do helps.
hahas. anyway, wow. i went into
finals for a photography
competition. first time in my
entire life that i went to a
finals in a competition. and the
photo is gonna be used in a book
for coverpage. hahs. yeahs.. and
my father gave me a $100 voucher
from Dockers.. don't know what's
that. indeed a blessed week and
i should bless others ya.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
wow. you know what? i introduced
QBhouse in my previous entries. it
was good. and today i went to
another one. it's free, short and
style. the 'barber' cut my hair like
nobody business creating a huge
crater at the back of my hair. it's
the PQB house. 'Peicai Quick Beauty
House.' -___-'' i had to spend
another $7 cutting the hair again
which sent me struggling with just
$3 for dinner.
ah.. i need some plannings for my
studies. i need some help in planning.
do anyone know how to plan on
which subject to study everyday?
anyway, God spoke to me or should
i say God smacked me with this verse.
EPH 3:20 Now to him who is able to do
immeasurably more than all we ask or
imagine, according to his power that is
at work within us
more than we ASK or IMAGINE. God will
use us beyond what we ASK. but who
will really be used by God powerfully?
those who really have FAITH in God on
His promises. let me be the one! let me
claim Your promises with FAITH but not
with DOUBT.
Monday, August 23, 2004
finally i knew the answer of how the
head of librarian died. he was on his
way to school on national day. a day
which he need not need to work. but
he still went. his illness started to
react, i'm not sure how to spell the
name of this illness correctly but it's
called 'feats'. when feats start, the
illed person will begin to bite his/her
tongue. heard from my friend that he
went to used his arm to bite to
prevent his tongue from being bitten.
which in turns gave him no oxygen to
breath and eventually died. dots...
-____- i don't like these type of feel-
ing. death is just so real. i don't know
how to express it.. but its just so argh.
it's v. painful to see people who are
close/not close to you to leave this
world. yet many people live their life
as if they own this world and every
thing in this world belongs to them.
took privileges as rights. and once
these privileges are taken away,
they started to whine and complain.
-_____-
anyway, gideon lost his wallet and
his on his way to my house for refuge.
nevermind, will continue to pray for
his wallet to be found.
oh ya, my father bought 4 tickets
to some concert. zhen xiu wen. don't
know whose that. is it sammi cheng?
hahs. but i'm not going(duh) -.-
hahas. okay. talk more tomorrow.
ciao!
"He who did not spare his own Son, but
gave him up for us all -- how will he not
also, along with him, graciously give us
all things?" -- Romans 8:32
had a fun day with nico and yw today.
went for lunch, bowling and some haircut
at heartland mall. QBhouse is definitely a
great place for japanese haircut and it just
costs $10 for 10 mins with Japan-trained
hairstylists. yar. the coolest thing of all is
paying $10 for the haircut through a
machine. yep. and they give out free gift
for every customers which strangely, i did
not get to receive it. hahas. and once a
new customer entered QBhouse, the hair
stylists will greet with sincerity,
'konichiwa'. they have this machine which
is similar to a vacuum cleaner but with
less power which is able to sucks your
hair away! hahas. there will not be even a
need to actually wash your hair to get rid
of the tiny hairs.
this is really a great learning opportunity
of how settings, design even the crews
can actually attract people to come
again, again and again. really hope that i
will think of some breakthrough ideas
for caregroup to make caregroup very
appealing and keeps people coming.
watched van hellsing dvd just now. nice
show. the vampire and the werewolf! :D
this week will gonna be a busy week. i
need to finish off my DNT project by this
week so that by next week i will be able
to check that everything is working fine
for my project. yeah. okay. talk more
tomorrow. bye!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
yooo.. woo. today's 66th street was
great.. :D the amount of people who
came was so many. yep. shut up,
trust that He is in control and pedal.
yea. went to RC for revamp. and i
like the study corner. :D yea. after
that we celebrated gideon's birthday.
really thank God for what he has done
in my life. yep. woo. debbie bought me
a naruto poster of Haku! :D BUT peter
accidentally sit on it. -____________-
nvm thx deb, ruizhen, kok, wal, ian, gi,
dingchuen for the gifts and appreciation.
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
yo. didn't go to school today. down
with fever! =.= missed so many
lessons... -_-.. nevermind.. anyway,
went for meetup with gideon and
gideon's sheeps.. yea.. something
is gonna happen hahas.. yep.
to live is Christ! i'm living for One
audience. yea.
Greater
I want to go in your courts
I want to bow at your throne
There's a hunger within my soul
That only you can fill
All that I have belongs to you
You are the one whom I will trust
Nothing on earth I desire more
Than a life changing touch from you
You must be greater in me O Lord
Let all the rest fade away
Draw me nearer to you each day
I yearn to fix my eyes on you
I want to give you my everything
Just to walk with you by my side
My joy is complete in you
For you are my strength my hope
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
oh another thing. really wanna thank
God. my first english mock exam in
total i got 66 marks. b3!! it's has been
quite some time since i hit a b3 for
any subject. hahas. there's hope,
there's hope. hopefully i'm able to get
a2 for english. yar.. just two more
marks for compre and two more marks
for letter writing.. and my compo marks
stay as it is.. yea.
yo. thanks everyone for the greetings.
hahs. thanks for the sincerity.
appreciate it alot. :)
told one person about gideon's birthday
which is on this saturday. yea. the
greatest gift that this person can give
is to give his life back to God... and i
really hope that he will come back too.
gonna ask God to speak into my life
in my quiet time later. yea.
Sunday, August 15, 2004
for i did not give you a spirit of timidity
but of power.
for i did not give you a spirit of fear
but of courage.
you are living for the one and only
audience, that is me.
"For if we live, we live for the Lord, or
if we die, we die for the Lord;
therefore whether we live or die, we
are the Lord's."
nothing in this world belongs to you
in the first place. not even your 'so-
called rights'. you have no rights in
the first place. you don't deserve
what you have.
if you love me, you will live for me.
not just in your comfort zone, but
serving me beyond yourself.
For you did not receive a spirit that
makes you a slave again to fear, but
you received the Spirit of sonship.
And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."
Romans 8:15
Thursday, August 12, 2004
cool. i just downloaded the letter of
resignation from Mr Goh Chok Tong
from channelnewsasia. :D
yoyo.. got back my o level chinese
results. got c6 -.- gonna retake.
and hopefully can get a b3 or b4..
anyway, woo. saw the whole
ceremony of the swearing of the
new Prime Minister, Lee Hsien Loong.
yeah. our government is in good
hands :D yep. wahs.. just hope that
one day i will be the Prime Minister
hahas. dream on. lols. okay. gtg now.
bye!
expected the unexpected.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
back. it was a quick one. saw some
friends from other classes there. ya.
i did not hold the joss sticks but i
joined them in the queue as a sign
of respect. i didn't stayed long as
my friends were about to go when
i reached. my mum gave me $10 to
give to their donation. took cab to
there and took cab home.
funny thing was that the cab driver
who drove me to the place was the
same that drove me home. it's so..
coincidental.
his death comes so sudden. no-
body expected him to die. though he
had some illness, but i did not expect
him to go away from this world so
soon. i still planned to visit him in
school after my o levels. i know by
visiting him in the funeral, giving
money for donation and signing his
condolence is too late and useless
as we will not be able to do anything
when one person died. but i just pray
that through my actions and my life,
i will shine God's light to others. it's
really true that once a person died,
you can't do anything. you can't pray
for him, you can't thank him for what
he has done, you can't tell about God.
you can't do ANYTHING. let's do some-
thing that will show God's love while
people around us are still alive.
back from school and caregroup! :D
thank God for wisdom for my english
o levels oral. yeah. i talked about
the game, polar bear. hahas. yeah.
thank God for peterrrrrrrr. he helped
me in my oral until 1am+. yeahhh..
anyway, syekit's birthday is today!
:D thank God i'm able to reach RC
and listen to some parts of the
teaching and celebrate syekit's
birthday.
saw two of my classmates at 70
bus stop. they were going to the
funeral of my libarian head. yars.
i'll blog more when i get back home
from the funeral if there's time.
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
just came back from macdonalds. yep.
reached there at 3.11pm. planned my
schedule for my revision for prelim.
thank God for shawn. yeah. he tutored
walmond, syekit and me.
gonna study hard and pray with faith
for miracles during prelim. 20points!!
received a breaking news today from
my classmate that my librarian head
had just past away. -_- he was a great
'korkor' that i knew ever since i joined
library as my cca. he's quite young.
maybe in his late 20s? or early 30s.
i remembered that once he told other
librarians and me that he has some
illness which could make him lose
control of himself and shake his body
vibrantly, those illness that will bite
their tongue. btw, he's also have
stroke. half of his body is unmovable.
seriously, i will really miss him. most
probably, i will be visiting his funeral
tomorrow after caregroup to pay
respect. arghs. i don't think he is a
christian!
simple-minded for God.
Sunday, August 08, 2004
we were born to live and we live to die.
life is just a waste of time and resources.
life is utterly meaningless.
i found nothing but temporal pleasures.
i'm just so sick of the routines of this world.
BUT i know that there's more to life.
and i'm just so thankful that i've found the
purpose in life.
i could sing of Your love forever.
today was just such a great day.
i can just say today was a life-
changing one for me. indeed it is
true, God will never leave and
forsake me.
i'm just so encouraged by
testimonies shared by xiaoting,
aaron and marcus. simple people
with a simple heart sharing real
experiences of God's miracles. if
God doesn't exist, who is the
one that can changed them so
tremendously? family and ministry.
the simple faith and the desperate-
ness these servants of God have.
all the testimonies that were shared
had this very powerful word. that is
'pray'. ask. and you WILL receive.
i'm just so speechless right now. i was
so touched by God of how He placed
people to remind and refresh me of
who He is and what He want me to
be.
i was affected by something before
the service even start and i felt so
frustrated. however, God reminded
me once again, that my joy should
be in Him not man. and i know
throughout the service and sdmm,
God has been speaking to me about
faith. about trusting in His promises.
to believe in faith and not doubt.
God had sent so many people who
encouraged me directly and indirectly.
thank You, thanks...
eelee, xiaoting, aaron, marcus, gideon,
peter, syekit, huasiang, puaylin.
i wanna share about aaron. i had
seen him since the day he received
Christ til today. i still have the photo
of him receiving Christ in RC. and i
really see how much he had grown,
to be more Christ-like, to love God
and even to influence life.
God will pull me through as how He
had in the past and He will bring me
to where He wants me to be.
i am tired but charged up spiritually,
refreshed and renewed.
a big thank You and yous.
Saturday, August 07, 2004
it's because of your love that gave me
life to the fullest by living in fullest
exaltation. that's what life all about.
Friday, August 06, 2004
yoyo. really enjoyed the fruitful learning
with peter. yep. he taught me how to
study certain subjects. the following
monday, i will be going his house to take
his o level books and study with him. :D
anyway, peter enjoyed a cheap but
memorable time with freedy hahahaas.
you will stunned when you hear what
actually happened. it's beyond normal
seventeen and eighteen JC students will
do. but it's a sincere gift from freedy for
peter. :D
okay. while i was on my way home, i reset
my goals for my o's. here are the goals.
english - a2
maths - a2
science - a2
physic - a2
chemistry - a2
humanities - b3
geography - b3
social studies - b3
dnt - b3
chinese - b4
L1R5: 2+2+2+3+3+4=16
and these are my prelim goals...
english - b3
maths - b3
science - b3
physics - b3
chemistry - b4
humanities - b4
geography - b4
social studies - b4
dnt - b4
L1R4 - 3+3+3+4+4=20
yep.. i aimed to have one point
lesser from my prelim results for
my o's.
there is another thing peter reminded
me, not just study diligently but also
trusting God for miracles to take place
during exams. yep. not just do the
physical work that is studying
diligently but doing it with faith that
God will do the miracles. and also take
this examination period to maintain
a even stronger and closer relationship
with God. yep. really wanna thank him,
he really had helped me alot, in my
ministry and in my studies. yep.
Thursday, August 05, 2004
yooo. caregroup today was different.
led by Gideon, acapello worship,
powerful prayer, fruitful fellowship.
yep. communication skill really do play
a very big part in the ministry. the
message that God want to speak to
the group is through the leader's
message. yea. gonna learn from gideon
more next caregroup. yeah! :D
woo. praise God. my paper2 english
mock exam, i got 32/50. improvement!
my teacher told me that my paper1
had also improved. but i still have not
get back my paper1 yet. yeah! :D
today i had six periods of DNT. cool ar?
lol. that's alot. thank God i was able to
contact jiankai to remind him for care-
group. and he came today! :D :D
my class bought the national day shirt.
yep. and we signed on the shirts using
fabric paint. cool idea isn't it?! :D but
too bad i have not bought mine. >.<
my classmate will be passing it to me
tomorrow morning. :D
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
yo. i've not blogged quite some time.
yeah. busy with revision. today went
for oral practice after school. next
wednesday will be the day for my
o level english oral. fell sick today..
sorethroat and slight fever. could be
caused by the chocolate waffle that
i ate yesterday. but it's v. nice. lol.
yesterday had my napfa test. -.- i
failed standing broad jump. lol. nvm.
first time pass all except one. but
the most lame is when i did 41 situps
and the teacher called us to stop as
she forgotten to press the stop
watch! lol.
halfday on friday. :D gonna wear the
singapore t-shirt.
blog later!
Sunday, August 01, 2004
studied in mac today. yep. and after
studying, the brothers went for some
eating and fruitful sharing. :D
-.- there's this brother that i've knew
but he backslided. and his life is totally
upside down right now. -__- really feel
for him.. just hope that he will come
back soon. it so meaningless. doing all
the things over and over again. not
knowing what to achieve in life. -__-
nothing in this earth can ever separate
the love that Christ had for us. nothing.
